Of course I start back up just before the holidays which means I may be sporadic in posting.
Today I celebrate three recovery “wins”… And the challenge for me, is not to put qualifiers or diminishers on them (you know “I did this… but this is why it doesn’t REALLY count”) – I am going to own my successes without needing to defend why they aren’t enough to my eating disorder.
1 – I ate fries. Truffle fries. They were good.
2 – I said “yes” to plans without knowing exactly what they were.
3 – I felt the sadness and loss of the time of year and in response, I didn’t use unhealthy coping. What did I do? I cried and felt sad.
May you all feel what you feel through the holidays and may those feelings include at least some fleeting sparks and rays of hope and light. And preferably, of course, fireworks of joy!